❤ Updatess ❤

Lately, things had been going out of hand between me n zack. Yahh, turns out to be my moodswing. That's right. PERIOD ! Well, can't blame me. his attitude still sucks.=(
But yeah, what to do kann ? daa sayang.

My bbygirls slalu kt sisi i. Happy happy ! Mal & Ice . Sayang, sayang. ILY !

Sayang, PLEASE, please. berubah lah seh. Kate jek nk kahwin. BOOHOO! Please, im looking forward to your chnge. Change for us. For the future. for OUR future.
LOVE, love. Muah.

❤ E ☆ L ❤ L ☆ A ❤

❤ Thank you, Zack ❤

Thank you Zack for making me who I am today.
Thank you Zack for loving me.
Thank you Zack for caring for me.
Thank you Zack for being there for me.

Thank you Zack for being unreasonable.
Thank you Zack for not being understanding.
Thank you Zack for your ego.
Thank you Zack for giving me false hopes.
Thank you Zack for making me love you.
Thank you Zack for the memories.

❤ E ☆ L ❤ L ☆ A ❤

❤ It's broken, dude. ❤

Yeah, I'm giving ZaCkyLLa a break. I really can't stand the whole shitness going around in life. The attitude, the forgiveness, the pain. Yeah, it's all over for now. Eventhough how much you meant to me or how much we've been through, I'm putting a stop to all of this. May be temporary. But its stil a break-up. I'm doing this for you. For you to realize how much I loved you. Because all these while, you didnt. I want you to change. So yeah, no contacts during these days. I'm just trying to make this right. yeah, it may be killing you. but it kills me more. but i know we'll be back together again. that is if you still love me or you still want me. So yeah, ZaCkyLLa's broken, you know it. Change, that's all im asking for. that's the only way, we can make it through. the only way we cn last. the only way both of us cn be happy. I'll change too. Trust me. I'm not asking much. Just change. So yeah, come back by 5th May and prove to me that you're a better person. Prove to me that you love me n appreciate me. Prove to me taht you deserve a girl like me. Fight for me. Cos you know there are guys out there reaching out for me. But i'll ensure you, my heart is for you. It's already with you. But you just have to keep it safe and warm and come back on the 5th May, which is supposed to be ZaCkyLLa's 19th monthsary. So yeah, Goodluck sayang. *winks*

❤ E ☆ L ❤ L ☆ A ❤

❤ Breathe, babygirl. ❤

Breathe babygirl, breathe.
Like Zaidee said, ade hikmahnye. Don't get too emotional or jump to conclusions that quick baby. Now just breathe, calm down and relax. Everything will go fine. Trust me babygirl. Zack may be unreasonable or not a gentleman, yes. but there's always something afterwards. Just breathe. Everything will be alright. Eventhough how much your heart hurts, to how many pieces it shattered, just breathe. Everything will be alright. =) Just be strong baby. Just breathe.

❤ E ☆ L ❤ L ☆ A ❤

❤ Stupid dreams. ❤

Yeah, I gotta see life as reality. It was never a fairytale. Just my dreams.
My stupid dreams. Thank you so much dude. You were always there to end my dreams.
A round of applause for you dude, seriously. Not even an apology. WHATEVER.
Why even bother being there for me? Why bother caring? Why be here just to let me down? Like the song goes,

Say you're sorry
That face of an angel comes out
Just when you need it to
As I pace back and forth all this time
'Cause I honestly believed in you
Holding on,
The days drag on
Stupid girl
I should have known,
I should have known

That I'm not a princess
This ain't a fairytale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood,
This is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now its too late for you and your White Horse,
To come around.

Baby I was naíve,
Got lost in your eyes
I never really had a chance.
My mistake I didn't know to be in love you had to fight to have the upper hand.
I had so many dreams about you and me.
Happy endings
Now I know

I'm not a princess
This ain't a fairytale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood,
This is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now its too late for you and your White Horse,
To come around.

And there you are on your knees
Begging for forgiveness,
Begging for me
Just like I always wanted,
But I'm so sorry

Cause I'm not your princess
This ain't our fairytale
I'm gonna find someone, someday
Who might actually treat me well.
This is a big world,
That was a small town
There in my rear view mirror,
Disappearing now.
And it's too late for you and your White Horse
Now its too late for you and your White Horse
To catch me now.


I ain't leaving. But you gotta realize sometimes. I am not a toy. I have feelings.
A girl who just wanted love, warmth and sincere-ness.
A girl who wants to make her dreams come true.
A girl that you left broken at the corner of the room.
A girl who just cried.
A girl who hates getting hung up on.
A girl who waits no more for apologies.
A girl who is being strong.
I'm just a girl who just need ... YOU.
But a little twist in life, this girl can leave her shattered dreams behind.
And move on. Just remember that dude. Just remember that.

❤ E ☆ L ❤ L ☆ A ❤

❤ B******T ! ❤

Yeah, B******T ! pure b******t.
Thank you for spendng the day with me,
and thank you for spoling my god damn mood syg !
seriously, look at yourself. I didn't evn scold you or anythng.
nk mrh2 kenape? i was saying the fact dude. C'mon !
If I could put my friends aside, why couldn't you ?
this s pure B******T ! I had enough dude, seriously.
Is this what I deserve?! Did I even raise my damn voice? Stupid S**T !
Thanks for beng an A*****E !

❤ E ☆ L ❤ L ☆ A ❤

❤ I Miss You. ❤

Dearest sayang, I MISS YOU! Don't you miss me ? We haven't met for like ... IDK ?
2 days ? But it felt like a week or so . OMG ! Looking forward to meeting you this Monday .
Today I went to ETP with family. YAY ! I love family ! Muahmuah .
I Love Everyone ! MuahMuah . YAY !
Today is a very happy day ! =)

❤ E ☆ L ❤ L ☆ A ❤

❤ Sayang, sayang. ❤

Today went out with syg and his family to visit ayah ( syg's dad ). Ayah msk hospital because he got lung infection. Get well soon Ayah. Then I have to reach home by 4pm. So we went out from novena at ard 2++. then go sontot. hardcore beb ! then go meet mama at Marsiling. Otw there, syg was caught red-handed of his hp tht a girl msg him. bbl i&u lak tu. GERAM! sedih. yeahh, most of all, sedih. for the past few months I've been ver faithful to you. Is this what I deserve? What wrong have I done to you all these while? Ape salah I? yeah, i gt alot of guyfriends. but tk satu pn i bbl i&u ngn drg. u used to be like who i am right now. where are you now? what is my wrong? it's no use for tears and cries right now. it was never a use. Useless. I'm being very strong. very,very strong. I'm sorry if I gt too emotional. ='(

❤ E ☆ L ❤ L ☆ A ❤

❤ Dear Love. ❤

Dear Love, I apologised for what I have done that shattered your heart into a million pieces. but I kept it to myself because I didn't want to hurt you sayang. I'm sorry, but I swear to you that these few months I have been very faithful and truthful to you sayang. Cin tk pernah tipu sayang this year. Sayang please, let the past be the past. I know I was wrong. But this year I swear to you, I betol2 setia kat you. I tk der laki pn blakang you sayang. Please. All for them were last year and I thought you knew? But whatever it is sayang, I Love You. Please forgive me.

Maybe you did forgave me. But I don't understand. When we met just now, I asked you to give me one big slap, I don't get it why you kissed me. I deserve a slap for keeping all these from you sayang. I dont get it. but I love you sayanng. Muahmuah. Please, please forgive my sins. ='(

❤ E ☆ L ❤ L ☆ A ❤