❤ 2010, new life. ❤

Omgosh, it's just the freakin first day of school.
Yet, i feel sooooo malas !
From 8am all the way to 5 +.
Did some orientation in the school & stuff.
Met some new gerek N1 friends !
Eena, Nad, Fiqq, Ben & Kyle.
You guys rock lah seyh !
Abt 2++, our OGS, Hisham gave us a break.
So us except Nad went out for a smoke.
=)

Our CA, Miss Lydia said,
we having camp next week, 2 days 1 night at SDC.
Woooo , aircon !
& that our class gg overseas this march.
GEREK PERH !
Overall, freakin' tiring day lah seh.

Ayangbaby fetch me home.
I slept in the mrt uh.
Saket dok kpale .
Tibe2 headache like wht.
Oh, and Ayangbaby daa botak lah seh.
Tkperh, hair will grow .
=)
Well, malas2 pon, want go school, meet ma rockin' new friends lah seh.
Now this is a great start for 2010 !
WOO !

❤ Gosh gosh gosh ! ❤

I know !
So not me kan ?
Different sia !

That's my so beloved Mak Su !

& me with that duckie lips .

Thanks to ELNAA for uploading these picpic !

This was during Alice's 1st Birthday.

Anyways, as everyone knows, I got promoted to sec 5 or higher nitec.

which I chose higher nitec .

And I so cant wait for the 28th of December.

The results of my course .

We got 10 choices.

Here's mine .

1. Leisure & Travel Operations

2. Hospitality Operations

3. Business Studies ( Administration )

4. Business Studies ( Service Management )

5. Visual Merchandising

6. Banking Services

7. Accounting

8. Business Studies ( Event Management )

9. Integrated Logistics Management

10. Business Studies ( Sports Management )

The first four are all at ITE Clementi.

Second four all at ITE Bishan.

Last two at ITE East.

I wish I get any of the courses at ITE Clementi.

So can go ITE West later .

Woohoo .

Wish best of luck for me please !

Harap2 I get any of the first four choices .

Alhamdullilah AMIN !

❤ OMGOSH ! ❤

I sooooo cannot believe it !
I've got promoted !
But I'm taking higher nitec though.
I'll be choosing either leisure and travel or hospitality.
OMGOSH !
I am sooooo dreaming !
Seriously dreaming !
OMGOSH !

❤ That's Pure Bullshit ! ❤

Fuckin bullshit sia.
It's so not making any sense!
Take results also must follow uh ?
Bullshit sia.
Think what?
I small kid isit.
I fuckin pissed off sia.
Seriously, what do they take me for?
I'm not a small kid.
Im already 16 !
Takkan nk amek results pon kene ikot perh ?
Mepek siak.
It's fucking not making any sense !

Well, I'm taking my results today.
Meet gfs too.
But mood totally spoil sia.
Some people really have no brain at all !

❤ Yours truly, Eyla ❤

There's so much to talk about.
I didn't have any time to update as I gotta catch up so many things in life.
I'll just update how life's going now.

BABYGIRLS.
My babygirls are all so busy with work.
Everything's falling apart.
I miss all those times and memories together.
I hope for the better though.

Mal's all stressed up about this matmotor?
For the first time ever?
I actually laughed about it.
Sorry Mal baby,
it's just surprising!
But hey, forget about the jerk.
Don't rush.
Your prince will come around one day, =)

Ice is in her fantasy world between herself and Farley.
A.K.A Airpork
Well, she dont realize that we're all mad at her.
because she freakin' forget about us.
I just hope one day she'll come to her senses.

& Redha?
She appears, then disappear.
STANDARD !
She's in her fantasy world too, as always.
Well, I really gotta work next year,
to pay her back what I owed.
$ 146 left . GOSH!

Besides all these going around,
I want you girls to know that I am always here.
Even if you forget me.
I'll be here for you girls aite !

Well, we're meeting up this coming Friday,
which is also the release of our N-levels results.
Gonna cherish this moment so much.

FAMFAM.
Me and my family are getting closer than ever.
And since I'm not working nor schooling now,
it made it easier for us to bond closer.
Mom and dad ain't that bad, i guess.
Mom's still a nag though, but pure gerek.
Dad's in his work lately.
Overtime?
Somehow i don't think so.
Oh well, siblings remained the same.
Same old noisy and irritating fellows.
As usual.

AYANGBABY.
Yes, it's been hard for us, I know.
And i know, I've been not understanding enough.
but you didnt make the time for me.
You don't realize how hard it is for me.
It's hard okay baby.
And it hurts especially when you get mad,
and hurl vulgarities at me.
I really hurts alot.
I really love you baby,
with all my heart.
But if you dont change the situation,
I dont think I'm your bride baby.
So please change the situation.

I see your efforts though,
You're going to M'sia for 5 days.
You would have gone for 2 weeks if I didn't freakout.
Well, you wouldn't be there for me when I take my results.
Sad, but its okay.
You made the effort to meet me up tomorrow before going to M'sia.
That's very nice of you.
Thank you baby.
Imma hug you tight.
I'll miss you.

EYLA.
Well, my medication for TB is going to end soon.
YAY ! Yucky meds .
But other sickness are coming up, like heartburn and migrains.
It hurts so much.
I keep getting these when Ayangbaby get me all stressd up.
Dont know why.
Still the same old me, no difference.
Except now, I think I get emotional too fast.
Period i guess.
Oh and I so need that cute small black backpack !
$20 please baby ?
Well, can't wait for this Friday and tomorrow.
Gotta go now.

Yours truly,
EYLA

❤ F**K ! ❤

Alot of things happened.

Well, let me put it in points.

- Fought with BFFs.
- Got hit by Daddy.
- Terserempak with AMY !! and Shah !
- Fought with ayang, again .
- Fought with Isham.
- 39 days to 'N' levels

Banyak gadoh uh.
Sorry. Can't update much right now.
Busy.
Toodles.

❤ E ☆ Y ❤ L ☆ A ❤

❤ Goodbye people ! ❤

Dear people,
I will be very busy nowadays .
N-levels coming .
Sorry for late updates .

Oh, I'm sick .
I have TB .
That's right, Tuberculosis.

Hope you guys understand .
Take care .
Bye .

❤ E ☆ Y ❤ L ☆ A ❤

❤ Happy Birthday, Ayang ='( ❤

What a bad gf i am.
not being the first to wish ayang happy brthday.
buat prangai.
who could blame me?
he made me mad.
i told him already, so straight-forward,
tkmo keje jaoh2.
i tk suke.
tetap nak.
and since i cnt be there today,
i wanted to make it up on tues.
since monday im nt gg to sch.
but he mati2 nk g interview keje at the lucky plaza.
wow, and he said im important.
sanggop ketepikan walaupon i tk kasy.
who am i to you anyway ?
My words may be hurtful, but your actions hurt more.
i already told you, nt far away.
you ego sgt, tknk dnga.
and u tried to use your parent's name.

Think for yourself,

make your final decision.

me or the job?

daa kahwin keje jaoh i paham urh.
nih belom, n i tknk u keje jaoh2.
penat sendiri, susah sendiri.
i tk suke, lagypn alek lambt.
so yah, you think for yourself.
im no longer in need to control you.
you daa besar kn, daa der otak sendiri.
='(
i will not control you, if tht's wht you wnt.
im not more important perh kn.
i ckp tknk dngar.
who am i to you anyway.
there's alot of jobs in wdlands.
but you wanted jaoh2, yg i tk suke.
suke hati you lah.
i ckp pon mcm you dnga gitu uh kan ?
so yah, you're own your own.

to people, i will not active these coming weeks.
firstly, exams are in one month and a half time.
barely have time for anything.
and secondly, im suspected of tuberculosis.
tmrw results.
sorry, but i dont want to get cured.
since aku hidop menyusahkn org,
i will not go to the doc, i will not eat my meds.
I'd rather die,
aman dunia ehk,
especially Ayang's.
I'm no more important.

Dearest ayang, happy birthday.

❤ E ☆ Y ❤ L ☆ A ❤

I'm wondering why I even bother layan nih budak.
Whatever it is, it's about the truth.
hah, i cant believe you aniq.
hah, its over lah eh.
aku daa malas siak mcm nih.
you are nothing.
get the fuck off from my life.

❤ E ☆ Y ❤ L ☆ A ❤

❤ Especially for ANIQ ! ❤

Sayang's back, and yeah.
Sayang denied evrything, and wants to prove to me.
It's official !
Someone's trying to break us up.
We all know who.

ANIQ !

Whatever it is, he's a despo !
Seriously, is there no other girl?
pompan org pon mau rampas ?
I love my sayang.
And sorry, eventhough he's like this,
I have to accept.
You are no better than him.
Don't try to make yourself look so innocent.
I had always knew it,
One word to describe you :

LIAR !

Yeah, I understand,
if you really love someone,
fight for them.
But sorry,
this is not fighting.
THIS IS RUINING MY 1 YEAR GG 2 YEARS RELATIONSHIP WITH MY SAYANG, ZACK !
Dont you ever use your fcuking brain ?
Seriously, you're making matters worse.
You know I'm alright with Zack,
yeah, maybe a few misunderstandings with him,
But you know I'm happy with him.
YOU KNOW I'M HAPPY WITH HIM !
YOU KNOW I GOT HIGH HOPES WITH HIM !
YOU KNOW I LOVE HIM !
WHAT RIGHT DO YOU HAVE TO BREAK US UP ?!
ANSWER ME ANIQ !
IF YOU REALLY HAVE THE GUTS,
FACE ME AND ZACK, BRING ALONG SYAM AND MAS,
AND I'D LIKE TO HEAR FROM THEIR MOUTH.
LET'S SEE HOW MUCH OF A COWARD YOU ARE !

ANIQ, look what have you done.
you just made your life more miserable.
No wonder girls could not last long with you.
YOU'RE A LIAR !
That's why !

❤ E ☆ Y ❤ L ☆ A ❤

❤ Believe ! ❤

I must think positive.
All of these are just lies.
These are just set-ups,
just to break me and Ayang up.
I agree that we're fading,
but I'm trying to keep it strong.
Ayang, I love you.
But we really have to talk.
Once i hear it from your mouth,
then it's a conferm set-up.
Someone's trying to break us up.
And i think i know who.
Da luh sayang.
As long as I still love you,
and you still love me,
kite tak akan pisah.
Just be strong,
kite pelan2 kayuh okayh sayang?
I believe in us,
I believe in ZaCkyLLa.
I love and miss you baby.
So very much.
Come home asap okeh sayang?

❤ E ☆ Y ❤ L ☆ A ❤

❤ Please Come Back ❤

I can't believe this.
Lepas satu2.
Look at my tagboard.
There's this person 'Scandal Z',
look wth he said.
Sadly, Ayg's at M'sia right now.
Please, come back.
I need answers.
Just to stop these tears from flowing.
Please come back.
I'm confused right now.
These rumours all around.
Please, come back.
We need to talk.
And I missed you.
='(

❤ E ☆ Y ❤ L ☆ A ❤

❤ Bad, bad dream ! ❤

Some dreams are better off not being true.
I had a bad dream yesterday.
Which resulted me to making up in tears.
My dream goes like this :

I just came bck home.
Mom looks bothered by something.
Then Opah came.
All drowned in tears.
When Mom saw Opah, she cried.
Opah then ask Mom what's wrong.
Then mama cried , and said Dad passed away.
I burst into tears, cried so hard.
Surprisingly, Ayang was there.
And I hugged Ayang so tight and cried.

I woke up to find out i was crying.

Then, Dad was online today.
I talked to Dad, asked how was he.
He said not too bad.
I felt like crying.
Come back please Daddy.
So All of us can be happy.

❤ E ☆ Y ❤ L ☆ A ❤

❤ Happy Birthday To ME ! ❤

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ME !
My day turns out so bery the happy ya know !
Got some presents, ENJOY !
Camwhored alot.
ENJOY the pics.
Too tired to post so many.
Update later aights !

❤ E ☆ Y ❤ L ☆ A ❤

❤ Gadooooh Lagy ? ❤

Ayang really turned me down yesterday.
Yes, it's really surprising when he came surprisingly.
He played boxing, catching ( mcm bdk2 kan ? ) , and I trimmed his brows.
Then, everything started to turned sour.
He wanted to go fetch Sarah, his babysister, at Admiralty.
Okay i admit I was wrong, I was late.
I'm sorry about that.
But it's partly Sarah's fault too.
She didn't wait nor tried to find Ayg.

Then, Ayg sent me home.
Then I told him to wait because I wanted to go out again to buy food.
Then he threw his cap so suddenly.
I said, lau tk ikhlas nk ikot, g alek je.
He said, asl tady tk g beli?
I raised my voice, tk cukop duit.
Then I just went in the house.
But my selera hilang already.
So i go out, salam him and tell him to go home,
since I don't want to eat already.
Then I just go in the house.
Less that a minute, I went out.
To check if he really went.
And he did.

Then, I called him to tell him that I'm checking the letterbox.
Then I just hung up.
Then he called bck and membebel.
Then I said I just called to say I'm checking the letterbox aje.
Then he said, go ahead uh, I TK KESAH !
Okayh, that's one.
He said me bullshit and stuff, okayh, fine.
Then, after membebel, he hung up.

Then I waited for him to call me.
I didnt went out at all.
I sat in my room, holding bck my tears.
Then suddenly he msged me,
And these were his exact words.

NIE SMUE U NYE PSL.
NOW I NYE LINE DAA KENE TARIK.
N I GADOH NGN AYAH.
NW I DAA TKLE KLUA.
THANKS EHK.
IS THIS MY BIRTHDAY PRESENT?

Yuhp, exact words.
My fault, my fault, everything's my fault.
your bday present?
or is this mine?
yeah, its okay.

Then, we tried to talk things out.
but it turned out worse.
I told him, idc whts his reason, my bdae, he's nt there, we're over.
I mean, seriously, It saddens me.
This is going to be the first time I'll be celebrating my birthday outside.
And you're not there?
How would you expect me to feel ?
And then he said we mmg ader pape, but tkder ikatan.
PEH SEDIH !
And I said, what's up with all those sontot?
He said, he thoguht nie smue stakat keje je?
I gt so sad, heartbroken seyh.
Then his dad gt out already, and he had to put dwn.
Ish, then I got really sad.
And cried and cried and cried.
And I didn't want to talked to him anymore.

I action tido, but I knew he called.
But I didn't want to talk to him.
ME TOO SAD !
But today, he apologised.
And want to take me go movies.
We'll see how it goes.
I'll update later.

Baby Ice pon gt problem.
About her 'boy',
WHAT AN ASSHOLE !
SERIOUSLY?!
Well, we'll wait and see.
I need to go meet up this guy.

I'm still thinking whether to celebrate.
I don't feel like celebrating my brithday.
So devastated.
I'll update later.

❤ E ☆ Y ❤ L ☆ A ❤

❤ Happy, Happy Today ! ❤

I got my hair rebonded last Thursday,

with GIRLFRIENDS !

Then, we went to town.

Edited some pictures ( above ).

Today, Opah came.

And treated my whole family to the movies.

i wanted to watch 'Drag me to hell',

but no one wanted to watch with me.

Ayang couldn't follow because Ayah's coming home today from hospital.

But Opah wanted him to follow.

*SMILES*

But last minute, Afiq ( babybrother ) wanted to watch with me.

He's 11 and love violence.

But Opah already bought the tickets.

And we had to watch 'Land of the lost'.

Can say mepek lah the cite.

But what the heck.

Thanks Opah!

I missed Sayang.

Can we go watch 'Drag me to hell' one day?

PLEASE ! ( cute, teary eyes )

Ayang just laughed, and said,

" So no ring for birthday ? "

AWW !

And I said, " Both lah, Ok ? Syg you! "

And he just laughes, and said see how.

Okay !

I love you, baby.

❤ E ☆ Y ❤ L ☆ A ❤

❤ Disasterous ! ❤

Everything's ruining.
My stupid hair cannot straight.
Spent 188 bucks for this shit !
Fcuk that rebond hair shop.

Thw weather sucks.
I hope by birthday the weather's okayh.
Please.

Conflict between Ayang and bbygirl, Ice.
Why can't you guys understand each other ?!
It's my fcuking birthday,
and maybe you guys ain't coming,
because you're mad at each other?
What shit is this?!
IT'S MY BIRTHDAY !
Might as well I celebrate alone siaa.

Ice, let it go.
Yes, what he said was unacceptable.
But I forgave him.
So, you must let it go girl.
And he refered it to me, not you.
So why take it to heart?
Just let it go please.

Sayang, don't take it to heart lah.
You know how Ice is.
Let it be lah.
Anyway, You should understand why she's like this.
I'm her friend, and she cares.
But please, let it go.

Guys, please make my birthday happen for me.
I don't want any conflicts and stuff.
Please.
You guys should really understand each other.
Seriously.



❤ E ☆ Y ❤ L ☆ A ❤

❤ Must be happy =) ❤

I'm smiling.
At last!
Sayang tak uat prangai, I tk uat prangai.
Everything's going on smoothly.
What's coming up tomorrow?
I'm going for rebonding before my birthday.
Will be going with Redha baby.
Since she has the promotion thingy.
Rebonding for $45 bucks, okayh lah.
So yah, look out for mah new hairstyle bebeh!

❤ E ☆ Y ❤ L ☆ A ❤

❤ Smile baby =) ❤

Everything went back to normal after yesterday.
I guess.
Yesterday, fought again.
Cry, cry, cry.
Couldn't help myself, went berserk, almost killed myself.
To people who care,
thank God I'm still alive now.

It seems that sayang don not respect me no more.
Gosh, I thought I respected you.
If you say I didn't,
think back.

When we fought,
I told you not to make me maki you.
But you dared me.
But I still didn't maki you,
but I went berserk and slashed.
I rather hurt myself than hurting you.

But you,
when you told me not to make you ungkit,
i purposely dared you to.
I wanted to see if you're really a man.
It turned out, you're not.
You ungkit.
Is that respect?

I hung up because I couldn't take it.
I was actually your fault,
but you blamed my attitude.
And you didn't let me talk.
And kept repeating.
Did you know how hurt I was?

I cried to sleep yesterday.
Yes, I know you called me.
I didn't want to talk to you.
I wanted to die.
You thank God I went weak and cried to sleep.
or maybe fainted.

This morning, I had to cry my heart out,
just to convince you meet me up.
Don't you knnow how much I missed you?
I guess you didn't.

Yes, we met then.
But I couldn't feel you.
I couldn't feel my sayang.
It wasn't you.
I wanted to cry when we hugged.
But I told myself to be strong.

Dear God,
I beg you to answer me.
Til when must I suffer like this?
Til when will he realize himself?
Til when will he respect me once again?
Til when will all these stop?
I beg you to answer me dear God.

Sayang tried to cheer me up.
We came to my house surprisingly.
And I've packed him some leftovers from Athilah's brithday.

Oh, talking about Athilah's birthday,
I bought her a Dora wallet and purse for her.
Went to buy it at Vista, basic point with sayang.
Sayang was kinda pissed when he was late.
I'm sorry.
I just need you sayang.

Back to us again,
When I went out, he presented me with a can of Rootbeer.
I smiled, and my heart felt free.
Sayang was trying to win my heart back.
Maybe he did realised his mistakes and fault.
Of how disrespectful he was.
I'm happy.
I love my Sayang.
But somewhere deep inside,
I still feel like crying.
Crying so hard,
letting my heart out.

I don't know why I feel I lost something.
Or isit I lost someone?
Whom I've longed to love.
just disappeared like that.

I prayed so hard everyday,
dropped tears every night,
just hope for Sayang to be himself once again,
and respect me,
and love me for who I really am.
That way, I'm sure, our future ahead of us will be shining bright.
Here, I pray.
=)

❤ E ☆ Y ❤ L ☆ A ❤

❤ Important? ❤

Now, it really shows that I am not important to you.
Thank you for all your false hopes and sweet talks.
You didn't bother calling me back when I hung up.
And my little sister's birthday?
I made the effort to clean, bake, and cook.
Because I thought you were coming.
Otherwise, why would I bother wasting my time?
Can't you at least take a day off?
There's always Zaidi what?
And you telling me you want to lepak with your friends?
Wah, how about me?
Learn to manage your time!
Am I not important to you?

I waited for you at MSL Hill.
Yes, I'm with my friends.
But I waited.
And when I called you,
You hung up on me.

DID YOU KNOW HOW I FELT ?!
Did you?

Thanks for being the worst boyfriend ever.
A jerk who doesn't cares.

Don't bother crying for someone who doesn't care for you anymore, Eyla.
Just go kill yourself.
And rot in hell girl.
No one bothers about you anymore.
Just die bitch.

I have not eaten nor drink for hours.

Let me die.

❤ E ☆ Y ❤ L ☆ A ❤