❤ OOPS ! ❤

Oh dear! What have I done?!
It's our 20th monthsary tomorrow, and I'm giving shit!
I shouldn't have screamed at ayang.
I guess I'm just tired.
What do you expect?
8 am to 5 pm of schooling, just to finish Art ?!
UNREASONABLE!
People are playing around man.
I could even go out and take a smoke or two.
WTH !

Ayang, I'm sorry for screming at you.
I love you okayy?
I'm looking forward to tomorrow okay ayang?

And HAPPY 20th MONTHSARY / 1 year 8 mths in advance baby.
I LOVE YOU!
Muahmuah.

❤ E ☆ L ❤ L ☆ A ❤

❤ Enjoy ! ❤

Yeah, things have changed since our recent argument.
Funny boyfie!
I guess I over-reacted. i was stressed,
and he adds on.
how am I not supposed to be fucked?
So yeah, things got out of hand, ayang bit me.
Couple of blueblacks on my right arm.
Ayang said sorry, and we're done.
Some asked me, why let it be?
It's just parts and parcels of life.
Ups and downs.
So since I wanna get married to him, I guess I just have to bear him.
But we're getting better.
Our relatioship's getting stronger now.
And I'm changing.
HURRAY !

Today, ayang came and helped up with this computer.
Turned out there's this stupid programme thingy.
IDK!
But we are so like MARRIED,
wifey and husband.
Then after that, we went to Marsling with mama.
And came back home again.
Ayang felt hurt when I didn't entertain him when the internet was okay again.
SORRY ayang!
dont take it the wrong way ayang.
Guess I was too engrossed.
I'm really sorry ayang.
And thank you so much okeh?
I love you!

Anyways, This coming friday, 5th June, is our 20th monthsary?
Which is 1 year 8months ?
So, ayang wants to bring me to the ZOO.
ZOO? Of all places, ZOO ? Haha. LOLs.
But atleast, it's a date right?
So I appreciate that ayang.
I'm looking forward to Friday!

Owh, not to forget, Ma Birthday!
It's coming up, 27th June.
I'll be celebrating ma birthday at ECP!
But it's not confirmed.
But I really hope it is.
SWEET 16 !
Sayang's giving me a ring.
He accidentally blurted it out.
YAY !
I know what's ayang giving me.
But yeah, the 'propose' is still a surprise right?
IDK how you would want to 'propose' me kan?
so no worries ayang!
Dearest God, please make my dream party come true!

❤ E ☆ L ❤ L ☆ A ❤

❤ Heartbreaking Fairytale Of CinderELLA ❤

Well, I've been down these few days. Heartbreaking man. Imagine your own boyfie calling you cheap. But what to do, It happened. I'm over it anyways.

To Alep, please don't lie to your heart. Jangan terlalu pakse diri okeh? Illa sentiase kat sini untok alep. Happy2 okehh. =)

Alot of this I've experience these few weeks. Good and bad. Yeahh.

To my cyg, hah! mind your words okeh ! you've touched me. FULLSTOP.

To my sayangs Ice and Mal. Thanks for always being there by my side. I love you.

To people, what I've learnt is that in life we must be strong. So yeah. It may be hard. But just be strong.

And to me, I've got alot of decision making to do. =)

That's all.

❤ E ☆ L ❤ L ☆ A ❤

❤ Updatess ❤

Lately, things had been going out of hand between me n zack. Yahh, turns out to be my moodswing. That's right. PERIOD ! Well, can't blame me. his attitude still sucks.=(
But yeah, what to do kann ? daa sayang.

My bbygirls slalu kt sisi i. Happy happy ! Mal & Ice . Sayang, sayang. ILY !

Sayang, PLEASE, please. berubah lah seh. Kate jek nk kahwin. BOOHOO! Please, im looking forward to your chnge. Change for us. For the future. for OUR future.
LOVE, love. Muah.

❤ E ☆ L ❤ L ☆ A ❤

❤ Thank you, Zack ❤

Thank you Zack for making me who I am today.
Thank you Zack for loving me.
Thank you Zack for caring for me.
Thank you Zack for being there for me.

Thank you Zack for being unreasonable.
Thank you Zack for not being understanding.
Thank you Zack for your ego.
Thank you Zack for giving me false hopes.
Thank you Zack for making me love you.
Thank you Zack for the memories.

❤ E ☆ L ❤ L ☆ A ❤

❤ It's broken, dude. ❤

Yeah, I'm giving ZaCkyLLa a break. I really can't stand the whole shitness going around in life. The attitude, the forgiveness, the pain. Yeah, it's all over for now. Eventhough how much you meant to me or how much we've been through, I'm putting a stop to all of this. May be temporary. But its stil a break-up. I'm doing this for you. For you to realize how much I loved you. Because all these while, you didnt. I want you to change. So yeah, no contacts during these days. I'm just trying to make this right. yeah, it may be killing you. but it kills me more. but i know we'll be back together again. that is if you still love me or you still want me. So yeah, ZaCkyLLa's broken, you know it. Change, that's all im asking for. that's the only way, we can make it through. the only way we cn last. the only way both of us cn be happy. I'll change too. Trust me. I'm not asking much. Just change. So yeah, come back by 5th May and prove to me that you're a better person. Prove to me that you love me n appreciate me. Prove to me taht you deserve a girl like me. Fight for me. Cos you know there are guys out there reaching out for me. But i'll ensure you, my heart is for you. It's already with you. But you just have to keep it safe and warm and come back on the 5th May, which is supposed to be ZaCkyLLa's 19th monthsary. So yeah, Goodluck sayang. *winks*

❤ E ☆ L ❤ L ☆ A ❤

❤ Breathe, babygirl. ❤

Breathe babygirl, breathe.
Like Zaidee said, ade hikmahnye. Don't get too emotional or jump to conclusions that quick baby. Now just breathe, calm down and relax. Everything will go fine. Trust me babygirl. Zack may be unreasonable or not a gentleman, yes. but there's always something afterwards. Just breathe. Everything will be alright. Eventhough how much your heart hurts, to how many pieces it shattered, just breathe. Everything will be alright. =) Just be strong baby. Just breathe.

❤ E ☆ L ❤ L ☆ A ❤