❤ Sad, sad me ='C ❤

Today, my family and I went to Aunty Diana and Uncle Ipin's wedding anniversary.
I ate alot.
Ayam masak merah.
FAVOURITE !
I ate just the chickens.
about 10 ? Ahha.

After that, I went to see ayah at TTSH.
Mom and gang didn't follow.
Sayang waited for me at Novena MRT station.
So there, ayah had this clip thingy on h is finger.
It's for heartbeat I guess.So I was so afraid to salam, so I didn't.
And I stood there without talking at all for about an hour ++
And then ayg's relative came.
And I had to go home, cos it was oredi 6++ and I have to reach home by 7.
So then I asked him to send me home.
He didnt say anything, so I assume he was sending me.
Then, on the way to the MRT station, we terserempak with Najj.
She was visiting ayah too.
So then, at the MRT station, he said ok lahh.
So i was like, I thought you're sending me?
And he was like, since when did I said that?
Then he told me 2 things that really made me tersinggung.

1 : Nenek asked him whether I am controling.
He said No.
But nenek said don't lie,
by the tine of my voice, she knew I was controlling.
WHAT DO YOU EXPECT?!
I am supposed to be!
because I was afraid ayg would cheat on me AGAIN !
So I had to get control of this.
Hearign ayg said tht, my eyes was already filled with tears.
And I tried so hard not to cry.

2 : He said Ibu tegur about my shirt.
She said my sleeves tend to menurun and can see my bra straps.
I mean, is that my fault?
I don't even know!

After that, to prevent myself from realy crying,
I just walked away into the MRT station,
and ayg was calling me out.
and I wanted so much to turn and give him a hug and kiss,
but I didn't wanna cry.
So I just walked without looking back.
At the escalator, a tear dropped.
And I had to wipe it away.
People were looking at me.
but what to do?
I am sad.

My journey home was awful.
I hear very emotional songs in mp3.
britney's old songs especially.
Haish.

Whatever it is,
i will make a point to prove to everyone,
I am not who they think I am.
Say what you may say,
though it hurts,
I will still stand strong.

Ayah, even though you might not like me,
like you did before,
Imma still stand by your side,
praying you get well soon.

And Ibu, I may not be the best.
But I'll prove to you I'll be a god wife for your son.

To sayang,
I will keep loving you.
I'm sorry for everything.
Give me time okay?
I love you.

My current mood right now : Very, Very Sad and Disappointed. ='C

❤ E ☆ L ❤ L ☆ A ❤

❤ Happy 20th Monhsary ! ❤

Dear Love,
Thank you for today.
Happy 2oth Anniversary . 1 Year 8 Months Anniversary.
I Love You Sayang. Muahmuah.

Today, Ayang & Me went to Northpoint.
I ate BK for breakfast.
He didn't ate expect for some pieces of my hashbrowns.
After breakfast,
We went to catch a movie.
Night At The Museum 2.
Ok lahh the story.
But the plot's a lil complicated.
But ok lahh.
Did some stuffs in the cinema.
SHH !

Then we went to CWP.
He wanted to buy me a rose, but there was not enough money.
So yah, never mind.
But he tried, so I was facing back.
And he came out of the store and he said he couldn't get the rose.
But I felt different.
I knew he had the rose.
So I said, If there's any rose behind me ...
And I couldn't continue my sentnce.
Then I laughed.
And he presented a rose.
AWW !
So we walked and everyone was staring at my rose.
But whatever, JAKUN katekan.
So yeah, went home.
Rose resting in the fridge.
And here I am, updating.
Dah, till here then.

HAPPY 20th monthsary / 1 yr 8 mths anniversary SAYANG !
I LOVE YOU!
Thanks again for today sayang.
Muahmuah.

❤ E ☆ L ❤ L ☆ A ❤

❤ OOPS ! ❤

Oh dear! What have I done?!
It's our 20th monthsary tomorrow, and I'm giving shit!
I shouldn't have screamed at ayang.
I guess I'm just tired.
What do you expect?
8 am to 5 pm of schooling, just to finish Art ?!
UNREASONABLE!
People are playing around man.
I could even go out and take a smoke or two.
WTH !

Ayang, I'm sorry for screming at you.
I love you okayy?
I'm looking forward to tomorrow okay ayang?

And HAPPY 20th MONTHSARY / 1 year 8 mths in advance baby.
I LOVE YOU!
Muahmuah.

❤ E ☆ L ❤ L ☆ A ❤

❤ Enjoy ! ❤

Yeah, things have changed since our recent argument.
Funny boyfie!
I guess I over-reacted. i was stressed,
and he adds on.
how am I not supposed to be fucked?
So yeah, things got out of hand, ayang bit me.
Couple of blueblacks on my right arm.
Ayang said sorry, and we're done.
Some asked me, why let it be?
It's just parts and parcels of life.
Ups and downs.
So since I wanna get married to him, I guess I just have to bear him.
But we're getting better.
Our relatioship's getting stronger now.
And I'm changing.
HURRAY !

Today, ayang came and helped up with this computer.
Turned out there's this stupid programme thingy.
IDK!
But we are so like MARRIED,
wifey and husband.
Then after that, we went to Marsling with mama.
And came back home again.
Ayang felt hurt when I didn't entertain him when the internet was okay again.
SORRY ayang!
dont take it the wrong way ayang.
Guess I was too engrossed.
I'm really sorry ayang.
And thank you so much okeh?
I love you!

Anyways, This coming friday, 5th June, is our 20th monthsary?
Which is 1 year 8months ?
So, ayang wants to bring me to the ZOO.
ZOO? Of all places, ZOO ? Haha. LOLs.
But atleast, it's a date right?
So I appreciate that ayang.
I'm looking forward to Friday!

Owh, not to forget, Ma Birthday!
It's coming up, 27th June.
I'll be celebrating ma birthday at ECP!
But it's not confirmed.
But I really hope it is.
SWEET 16 !
Sayang's giving me a ring.
He accidentally blurted it out.
YAY !
I know what's ayang giving me.
But yeah, the 'propose' is still a surprise right?
IDK how you would want to 'propose' me kan?
so no worries ayang!
Dearest God, please make my dream party come true!

❤ E ☆ L ❤ L ☆ A ❤

❤ Heartbreaking Fairytale Of CinderELLA ❤

Well, I've been down these few days. Heartbreaking man. Imagine your own boyfie calling you cheap. But what to do, It happened. I'm over it anyways.

To Alep, please don't lie to your heart. Jangan terlalu pakse diri okeh? Illa sentiase kat sini untok alep. Happy2 okehh. =)

Alot of this I've experience these few weeks. Good and bad. Yeahh.

To my cyg, hah! mind your words okeh ! you've touched me. FULLSTOP.

To my sayangs Ice and Mal. Thanks for always being there by my side. I love you.

To people, what I've learnt is that in life we must be strong. So yeah. It may be hard. But just be strong.

And to me, I've got alot of decision making to do. =)

That's all.

❤ E ☆ L ❤ L ☆ A ❤

❤ Updatess ❤

Lately, things had been going out of hand between me n zack. Yahh, turns out to be my moodswing. That's right. PERIOD ! Well, can't blame me. his attitude still sucks.=(
But yeah, what to do kann ? daa sayang.

My bbygirls slalu kt sisi i. Happy happy ! Mal & Ice . Sayang, sayang. ILY !

Sayang, PLEASE, please. berubah lah seh. Kate jek nk kahwin. BOOHOO! Please, im looking forward to your chnge. Change for us. For the future. for OUR future.
LOVE, love. Muah.

❤ E ☆ L ❤ L ☆ A ❤

❤ Thank you, Zack ❤

Thank you Zack for making me who I am today.
Thank you Zack for loving me.
Thank you Zack for caring for me.
Thank you Zack for being there for me.

Thank you Zack for being unreasonable.
Thank you Zack for not being understanding.
Thank you Zack for your ego.
Thank you Zack for giving me false hopes.
Thank you Zack for making me love you.
Thank you Zack for the memories.

❤ E ☆ L ❤ L ☆ A ❤