❤ Is this my god damn fate? ❤

Please, God give me strength.
Please, I'm begging not to let the same thing happen to me again.
My sayang is not my sayang anymore. Not the same person tht I love anymore.
I miss my old syg. I love my old sayang.
I HATE this person tht I'm giving my love to right now.
This person tht brings back my past into life. My awful, unforgiven past.
True, he doen't hit / beat me up. But the harsh words, the genggaman, everything.
It's tearing me apart ! I ask, who are you? he asks me bacl, who am i ?
and says I'm the one who changed. Excuse me? Ask everyone around you syg.
Sape yg berubah? I'm still myself. You were never yourself all these while.
Where is your love? You yourself know my past. And wht type of person exactly am I.
You know i tend to get emotional. Very emotonal.
Tell me, where is yourself tht used to understand and endure?
The same old Ella is always here. I have never changed. You're the one !
Now it's time for you to ask yourself, WHO ARE YOU?
I love you syg. But not this you, the old you. ='C

❤ E ☆ L ❤ L ☆ A ❤