❤ Trust me, We will get married. ❤

Firstly, my hair sucks. Make-up sucks. EVERYTHING sucks!

Just came back from visiting nenek. Well, nenek was so pitiful. Kesian seh. Haishh.
Well, I guess it's time to taubat.
Don't evn know if I get my chance to experience the best day of my life.
Came across this documentary about world's gonna end in 2012.
Like OMG ! Yeahh, planet stuff stuff. Oh dear, what's wrong with this world !
This cruel , unfair world !

Sayang, evn if we couldn't be together after the world end, trust me.
if we could get married in heaven/hell, I would.
I always loved you. If I can't live up to this particular year,
we'll meet sooner or later. Let us cherish every moments we had together.
I love you syg. Muahmuah.

❤ E ☆ L ❤ L ☆ A ❤

❤ Please be strong, Nenek ! ❤

It's just the starting of the day. Yet, I'm already pissed off.

WHAT THE F**K !

Firstly, syg went to school. And again, he forgets to call me. AGAIN !
I was wide awake seh, waiting for his call. But he never called.

Secondly, I'm gg to hospital. Nenek kene warded. She collapsed. And couldnt respond. And had short breaths. And her heartbeat was slow. But her eyes were open. OMG !
God, please help my nenek. And my uncles and aunties, sialuh !
tk boleh harap siakk . smue carik my mother. Anak smue ramai tkde tanggung jawab.
Yeahh, my mom's the eldest. But wth seyhh ! Anak laki smue mane ilang?
and if we dont go visit nenek, wahh ! mulot smue sial !
nk ckp bnyk, ckp nenek daa nk mati tkde org tgk .
WTF ! in the first place, where the fcuk are they when nenek baru2 saket?
where the hell are they when nenek need them? semue kutip duit dari nenek, beh tk tau kasi alek. now nenek is dying. my beloved nenek is dying.
skg smue aru nk tgk kn nenek ? for whtt ? nk harta ? sial uh ! cb siakk prangai !
if I could, I would take nenek home and take good care of her. but we cant.
atok is living with us. and nnt cnferm side baba smue bukak mulot.
now, nenek is not the same person who I used to love most. When i was small, nenek loved me so much. she took care of me and stuff. and i loved nenek so dearly.
it hurts seeing my uncles and aunties treat nenek like nothing.
nenek gt stroke after a fall. how could she fall ? wth were they doing ?
how did they look after her? smpai boleh jatoh mcm tu ? nenek is not nyanyok okay.
nenek stress. I really pity nenek. and everytime i see her, I wanted to cry.
how could they do this to her? my beloved nenek. She's dying. All of us know she's dying. She wouldnt even have the chance to see me naik pelamin. omg, nenek dont die.
God, help her. Give her strength. Let her live a little longer. Let her be herself again. Be nenek whom I used to know. Whom I used to love.
And let her have the happiest moments before she go. Please, let her live a little longer.

❤ E ☆ L ❤ L ☆ A ❤