❤ Sad, sad me ='C ❤

Today, my family and I went to Aunty Diana and Uncle Ipin's wedding anniversary.
I ate alot.
Ayam masak merah.
FAVOURITE !
I ate just the chickens.
about 10 ? Ahha.

After that, I went to see ayah at TTSH.
Mom and gang didn't follow.
Sayang waited for me at Novena MRT station.
So there, ayah had this clip thingy on h is finger.
It's for heartbeat I guess.So I was so afraid to salam, so I didn't.
And I stood there without talking at all for about an hour ++
And then ayg's relative came.
And I had to go home, cos it was oredi 6++ and I have to reach home by 7.
So then I asked him to send me home.
He didnt say anything, so I assume he was sending me.
Then, on the way to the MRT station, we terserempak with Najj.
She was visiting ayah too.
So then, at the MRT station, he said ok lahh.
So i was like, I thought you're sending me?
And he was like, since when did I said that?
Then he told me 2 things that really made me tersinggung.

1 : Nenek asked him whether I am controling.
He said No.
But nenek said don't lie,
by the tine of my voice, she knew I was controlling.
WHAT DO YOU EXPECT?!
I am supposed to be!
because I was afraid ayg would cheat on me AGAIN !
So I had to get control of this.
Hearign ayg said tht, my eyes was already filled with tears.
And I tried so hard not to cry.

2 : He said Ibu tegur about my shirt.
She said my sleeves tend to menurun and can see my bra straps.
I mean, is that my fault?
I don't even know!

After that, to prevent myself from realy crying,
I just walked away into the MRT station,
and ayg was calling me out.
and I wanted so much to turn and give him a hug and kiss,
but I didn't wanna cry.
So I just walked without looking back.
At the escalator, a tear dropped.
And I had to wipe it away.
People were looking at me.
but what to do?
I am sad.

My journey home was awful.
I hear very emotional songs in mp3.
britney's old songs especially.
Haish.

Whatever it is,
i will make a point to prove to everyone,
I am not who they think I am.
Say what you may say,
though it hurts,
I will still stand strong.

Ayah, even though you might not like me,
like you did before,
Imma still stand by your side,
praying you get well soon.

And Ibu, I may not be the best.
But I'll prove to you I'll be a god wife for your son.

To sayang,
I will keep loving you.
I'm sorry for everything.
Give me time okay?
I love you.

My current mood right now : Very, Very Sad and Disappointed. ='C

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